To be what we are, and to become what we are capable of becoming, is the only end in life. – Robert Louis Stevenson
I’m not normally a New Years Resolution type girl. Especially because I know I can’t keep a resolution alive all year long. I don’t have that long of an attention span. I get distracted, I forget, or I change my mind. This year I’m doing things differently. I actually made a list of goals for the New Year, and I feel incredibly inspired to make changes in my life. Guys… I haven’t had goals in a while. So I’m pretty excited. You can pretend you’re excited for me 🙂
- Get fit
Yes, very cliche, but I’ve really stopped taking care of myself the last few years, and I really want to feel good in my own skin. I feel really ready to actually make changes in my life to be healthier. I want all those benefits people talk about from getting fit. So I’m doing it. I don’t really have any set plans on HOW I’m going to do it, other than eating healthier, drinking less, and walking more. That’s a pretty good start, right? And maybe work out at my aunt’s gym at least once or twice a week 😉 And maybe actually do yoga cause my body really likes it.
- Journal regularly
I used to journal almost every day when I was in college, and it was such a great way for me to process things in my life, keep track of goals, and stay accountable to myself. I stopped somewhere along the line, and I have had such a hard time trying to pick it up again. Now feels like the time to get back into that habit to track my goals and process the fun changes going on in my life.
- Care about life, self, others, future, and family
For a long time now, it feels like I haven’t really cared about much. I stopped taking care of myself, stopped keeping my personal space clean and tidy, I grew apart from friends and family, I stopped watching the news, and just generally didn’t really care about anything (which is a really lame way to live). 2019 is the year for me to start taking care of the things that are important to me, starting with self-care and being more intentional in my relationships.
- Feel cute, good, healthy, excited
These are all things I haven’t felt in a while. I want to feel them. I think I will.
- Have a direction
I’ve been floating around in this weird transitional state for the past year. I did the lawyer thing. I didn’t like it. I did the New York thing. I missed California. So I’m back in California and not a lawyer, but haven’t figured out the What’s Next. I think not having a direction is a big part of why I haven’t cared about things. Or maybe not caring about things led me to having no direction. Either way, I’m ready to care and to have direction. I want to give my life purpose again.
- Have goals
Okay so this is the part I’m most excited about. I haven’t had goals in a really long time. Like there was Graduate from high school, Get a college education, Go to law school, Get a job… And after that I didn’t know what other goals to have besides Get married and Have kids, and I haven’t gotten to that stage of life yet (if ever, we shall see). I realize now my goals need to be set by myself, not by society. And I’m excited to set AND complete some goals.
- Start giving fucks
I guess giving fucks is the same as caring about things, but it’s more fun to say. For too long, I have had no fucks to give (which was probably a self-preservation thing). I’m ready to start giving fucks again. About things that are important to me. Like social justice. And Harry Potter. And having goals lol.
So… those are my goals for 2019 (and one of them is to have goals, which is kinda redundant, but I can have a goal to have goals, stop judging me). AND the best thing to come out of all this is… by making this silly list… I actually started giving fucks, I started caring about things, I started wanting to journal and get fit, and I started wanting to do things to feel better about myself! I mean, I know it’s only January 3rd, and I’m getting way ahead of myself, but I really feel like there’s been a shift in me and 2019 is MY YEAR (It doesn’t really make sense that a year could belong to a person, but it’s a thing people say, okay?)!
My brother and parents were talking about where he and my sister-in-law want to live next, and one of the places on their list was Sacramento. I heard that, and it was as though things clicked into gear in my head. I have always been extremely interested in public policy, but I don’t like the idea of doing it on the federal level (I have deep respect for people who do that work, but it’s just too big of a cluster fuck for me to handle), so I never gave it too much thought. And I lived in the capitol of New York, but never was interested in getting involved in policy work there. But California?? I LOVE California (probably too much). I could use my law degree WITHOUT being a lawyer! I’d get to be helping people, which is my utmost goal, and I know I’d be really good at it!
SO.. 2019. Thank you. I made a list of goals for the year, and it actually gave me some direction in life. I’m excited. I’m inspired. I’m ready to phase out of this transitional period of my life and into the next phase of living out my purpose! Woot!
Oh.. AND I picked a word for the year. Become. I’m ready to become who I’ve always wanted to be. To become an adult. To become more awesome. I’m ready to become!!!!